Warning, this letter is depressing. We want people to see the struggles of a mission along with the joys. We also felt if we posted this letter people would know how to uplift and help him through this struggle. Please keep Josh (and all the missionaries) in your prayers.

this week has been really hard week. really really hard. i want to go home, i want to be the missionry the lord wants but im weak. i cant talk the laungae i dont know the scriptures this isnt utah. these chruch shamsh there doctrine at you its the truth and they wont listen. how do i do this and be succesfull. im trying but i cant get over the pride. im trying to be humble butr i feel unworthy to be here my stuiped past! it hants me every day. im trying to be clean and virtuse but i fail this work is really hard and i wont go home i feel like it. but i wont im sotty im letting you guys down with this email and this hard week but i love you and im trying to make you prud and im going to humble my self more and work on claen thoughts. like i have been i gave up emailing people only you guys family and i dont get mail so thats not a problem. its just hard i want to go home im sorry im letting you down. but im going to fast and work on it i cant stand my companinon and what peoplñe say is ture i dont know sapnish i cant speak it and im wasting my time, but i know its true im sorry that this week has been hard im tyring to get along and get through but this week ahs been so hard. i wont go home and im sorry for my bad attitude about it is just hard 4 months and im still at the beeging i dont know anything. i love you all and im sorry.